Primrose we love and miss you more than we'll ever be able to explain. This year has been the most grueling, exhausting, trying, and humbling year of our lives. I'm naturally an emotional person but I've never cried this consistently before. I've never ached and hurt more emotionally, physically, and spiritually. I've never questioned God or felt more abandoned in my life. I've never been so angry and bitter. I've never sadly withdrawn more from the gospel or friends and family until this year. I've never been as mentally tired as I have this year.
With all these awful 'nevers' (that are hard to admit sometimes) we have also experienced 'sweet nevers'. We've never felt more love or support from family, friends, and complete strangers until this year. We've never had the chance to witness such incredible thoughtfulness and compassion until this year. We've never received more help emotionally, spiritually, and financially until this past year. We have never received as many tender mercies until this year. I've never had to pray so deeply and earnestly. I've never had the opportunity to re-learn the gospel and discover incredible insights. I've never had the privilege to see the blessings of seeking therapy. I've never been more grateful for friends and family who have stuck by my side even when I withdrew. I've never had the opportunity to meet women and families who I have instantly connected to and could bare my soul to so quickly until this year. I've never found myself at a point of nearly letting go of my beliefs and being able to recognize and choose it all all over again because of its truth. Etc. Etc. Etc.
The heartache continues but we are still standing. Our family is strong and the love we have for each other will get us through the years waiting for you. We love you darling Prim and are happy we are one year closer to being with you again. Happy birthday our beautiful darling<3
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